Day b4 Induction!

The last few days have been horrible! Not horribly uncomfortable or painful. Absolutely no contractions....none that actually amount to anything at all! Every time I stand up, or laugh or do anything else out of the ordinary, I think...well maybe my water will break! NOPE!!! Not with this kid! He is gonna be like my other boy and we are gonna have to go in after him! Induction was originally scheduled for 6am tomorrow but due to "scheduling conflicts" they pushed me back to 10am! They obviously don't know how ancy I have been! Yesterday was the very worst! The kids were both home and both very hyper and Duane and I are both on edge anyway cuz we are sooooo close! I tried to lay down and take a nap several times but all I could do was think. Think about everything...and I do mean everything! I am my Mama's child! I won't be able to rest until it is all over and I am holding him in my arms and I can see that he is ok...til then, my mind wanders! Every time a baby is born perfectly healthy, its an absolute miracle that so many people take for granted. There are a ton of things that can go wrong! Duane and I went to the park yesterday (as we have done several times in the past) we sat there for a while and enjoyed the quiet and the beautiful weather. Fall is our favorite time of the year for obvious reasons. The weather is beautiful, the trees are changing colors, temp. is cooler...almost hoodie time (Duane's fave...not mine) and FOOOOOTBALL!!! After we got to the park...everything was ok. I had calmed down and could actually relax. It helps that I have an amazing husband who would do anything in the world for me and vice verse. When we are together...its like the rest of the world doesn't exist. I wish everyone had someone like that. It's so hard to find and I spent YEARS of my life with the wrong people thinking that was "as good as it gets". I know now that it was God's way of teaching me to appreciate what I have when the right one does come along...and I do. I really really do!

 

I'm sure today will drag on and on because anytime I'm looking fwd to something that's the way it works. However, Mama's saying "things always look bigger coming up than looking back" prolly won't come into play here! Ha!

 

I have had my bags packed for months and keep throwing things into them. Mama has her bag packed. I pray she gets through this ok. She has been soooo nervous and looks like she wants to cry every time she sees me. Neither of the kids have expressed a desire to even be at the hospital so I am sending them to school like a normal day. Hoping by the time they get out that they will have a new little brother!

 

It is going to be SUCH a lifestyle change for the whole family and I pray that everyone adjusts well. I am sure Mama will be spending some extra time @ our house which is fine with me...she's all I have left and Duane LOVES her to death and FINALLY my Mama loves him too! I have never dated a guy Mama has even liked before my Ducky...but he's pretty hard to NOT love!

 

Yesterday am we went to 3 yard sales. No we didn't really have the money but ya never know what you are gonna find @ a sale! The last sale we went to had a big table of baby clothes (BOY BABY CLOTHES). Duane started throwing them into a pile. NB clothes are sooooo hard to pass up cuz they are so tiny and adorable to say the least. But the most exciting for both of us was the huge table of Mizzou and Chiefs t-shirts (long sleeve and short) and hoodies! Duane grabbed one hoodie and went to the check out but that's my restless duck! He doesn't really know how to work a yard sale. He's had some training but still needs work! In the end...we had about 20 shirts...all in great condition for $1 a piece??? HELLO FRIENDS!!!!!  Once we got home, Duane washed them (he is my new laundry guy....which I will be saddened to terminate once baby arrives) and then we sorted them.

 

HAPPY WHITHAMS!!!!

 

Been trying to keep the house cleaned and food in the house for the few days I won't be home but today...I give up! It's my last day to rest...and I'm gonna do it!!! Today is my favorite day of the week....CHIEFS GAME DAY! Gawsh I hope we look better than we did last week! We won against Drew Brees and the Saints last week but I didn't even care cuz Matty looked bloody awful and Dex got hurt....luckily not as bad as it looked but was replayed a million times that day!

 

The next time I post....I will have pictures! LOTS of pictures!!!! Til then...pray for me. Immma gonna need all the prayer I can get!! :)

 

 

I DID IT!!!!!

September 20th! It was the best of times, it was the worst of times. The week seemed to last FOREVER!!!! Was it because I knew it was my last week or because I'm in my 38th week??? Maybe a bit of both! The week started slow...which @ this point is my favorite!!!! Tuesday we had an appt. with Jane. She confirmed our schedule for Oct. 1 was still a go!!!! Dilated to 1 1/2???? What a joke! This kid is in NO hurry!! I have always said he is so comfy in there that he isn't goin anywhere til we drag him kicking and screaming from his little pod (or water bag as my Mama calls it!!!!)Wednesday the girls threw a baby shower for me complete with yummies all around! Very sweet and greatly appreciated!!! Thursday was a day from hell!!! I am pretty sure I have never been in so much "self inflicted" pain in my life. Sad thing about being the only nurse in the building...YOU JUST HAFTA KEEP GOING!!!!!

 

This week I made my FINAL car payment! What a relief!!! Lil Blue is MINE! Nobody can take her from me! YAY ME!!!! Sometimes hard work DOES pay off!!!!

 

Friday was prolly the most enjoyable day I have had in a really long time. No worries. None. I didn't have to wonder how I was gonna drag myself to work when it hurts to stand for more than 5 minutes. My Duck and I had a good visit with Mama, then we got some Subs and later went to a couple garage sales. I think I spent $5 but really had a great time and the weather this time of the year is absolutely beautiful!!!

 

Yesterday, me and the boys got our Halloween decorations out! The house looks great! I have been back and forth about moving to a larger apartment but this feels like home. Hopefully we can stay here another year or so b4 we totally outgrow it! We put our stroller and hospital bags in the car and I went through Liam's belongings one last time. I prolly wouldn't have to go through them so often if Liam didn't have an OVERLY excited Daddy!!! LOL

 

Today is Chiefs game day! They have lost the last 2 games but I can't help but STILL get excited!!! Every day is a new day and I will continue to have faith in my boys!!!!

 

GO CHIEFS!!!!

We're gonna make it after all....

WARNING!!!! PREGNANCY RAMBLING UP AHEAD...PROCEED WITH CAUTION!!!

So nothing really exciting happened this week. Looking back...nothing remarkable happened this week @ all but somehow I feel compelled to blog just because I woke up @ 3am and I'm happy!!!

This week started off with a Chiefs loss...a horrible loss! I guess it doesn't matter how bad they lose...it sucks regardless! 10 years ago if you told me I would be a Chief's fanatic, I would have laughed my ass off!!!

 

Who knew that I would get sooooo giddy on game day???? Certainly not THIS girl!!! Odd to me cuz my Dad and my sister were both football fans and my sister...she LOVED the Chiefs. I dated guys who were football fans but never had I grown to love it til I met my lovable Duck!

 

Guess I should thank him for that one day but as my biggest blog fan....he is prolly reading this now! LOL

 

As Monday rolled around....we had yet another appointment with Jane! (We are weekly now) We are both getting sooooo ancy for baby and sometimes I forget that this is Duane's "first time" with all of this. He has so many questions and most of them can't even be answered because every woman/baby is different! He even tried to sneak out of the room while the Dr. checked to see if I was dilated! LOL

 

I forced him to stay as I thought he prolly should get used to all the fun stuff and men are truly clueless what a woman goes through! Upon assessment, Dr. said baby still presenting head down and that I am dilated to 1. This makes me happy but @ the same time....LET'S GET THE SHOW ON THE ROAD KID!

 

The work week went well and I have been questioning myself as to rather I should have just worked right up til Oct. 1 or no? I am feeling pretty good...dare I say that?

 

I worry because I remember being so miserable with Andrew and Kaitlyn in the last month. I wasn't able to work past the 7th month with Kate d/t back pain. A lot has changed since then. Maybe I have just gotten better @ life in general??? I hope this applies in the delivery room!

 

This week has brought some financial woes that I didn't want to have to deal with just weeks before my maternity leave. I won't get into details but it has had me BEYOND stressed! I didn't sleep most of the week wondering what to do to fix this. I wanted it to just go away. Yesterday I realized...it wasn't going away and I needed to put on my big girl pants (and @ this stage...they are rather large) and deal with this so that I can enjoy my maternity leave!

 

Long story short. If I can make it through the week?

 

We are gonna be JUST fine!

 

Thank you God!

 



The Fall!

What a week it has been!!!

Wrapping up the end of my pregnancy...struggling to get to work everyday to make every cent I can before I take maternity leave so I don't have to worry about it while I am not working. Tuesday am, Duane and ran some errands with Mama, then went to Hyvee and loaded up on the salad bar. About an hour later I got myself ready for work. I had left my bag in the car so I was carrying my drink from Hyvee and my phone charger out to the car which is literally 3 feet from my front door. Duane was behind me with my dinner for the night. It was sunny that afternoon and I don't remember exactly what caused me to fall but none the less...down I went! Face first into the concrete! I learned later that I had stepped on a rock which caused my ankle to turn!

My first instinct...GET UP U FOOL BEFORE SOMEBODY SEES U!!! Next? OMG I just fell on the baby....HARD! Was I ok? Should I just get in the car and carry on? No! I knew I couldn't go through the day without assuring Liam was safe....nor would Duane allow it. I have NEVER seen him more scared. On the way to the hospital (which was a verrrry short drive) it started to hit me what had just happened and the wounds (my nose, my right elbow and both my knees) were starting to really burn...and bleed.

Not sure where to go...ER or OB...they got us to OB rather quickly. Seemed like forever before they hooked me to the fetal monitor. Nobody seemed to be in a hurry. I try to be patient...but they don't know my duck. He has ZERO patience especially when myself and baby are hurt! Trying to remain calm and keep him from attacking the nurse....we heard it. Liam's heartbeat. 150 she said.

BREATHE IN

BREATHE OUT

We were fine! I was ok after that. I knew he wasn't hurt...nor was he in distress. Somehow God...or one of our sweet angels cushioned our fall!

This did not calm my husband. He was still VERY upset and VERY concerned. It didn't help that I laid there for an hour and a half with 4 open wounds before someone thought it would be a good idea to dress them!

DA NOSE 



RIGHT KNEE

 

After about 4 hours, we got to go home. REALLY starting to get sore. I was up most of the night. Hard to get comfortable with baby...and a bum arm and leg. I was smart and called into work early in the am. I knew there was no hobbling out the door that day. I could hardly stand up. Knee was swollen. I was attempting to put ice, TAO and antiseptic spray...elevate it...blah blah blah. Everything seemed to make it worse.

 

Now that it has been 4 days since the incident...feeling much better but I haven't forgotten the wounds are there! LOL

 

As for Liam...I think he slept through the whole thing! Silly kid! Every time he moves around I am sooo thankful that he is doing ok! While we were @ the hospital...they did a sonogram to check fluid, placenta and baby for activity. All was good and baby is head down now which means c-section is OUT!!!

 

Crap! I was soooo getting used to the idea of the drop off delivery!!! Wasn't meant to be as Mama Brown always says! So I have been thinkin about the birth ALOT the last few days...even more than usual! Scared about the pain...scared about the epidural. Will my sweet duck survive? Will Mama survive?

 

God I hope u don't take that day off!